"I grieve for myself...
...and for the life I used to have.”
The words appeared beneath a photograph in The New York Times, telling
of a woman in Gaza who had lost her parents to war and now carried a
scar etched across her face—a permanent reminder of an explosion that
rewrote her life. That single sentence spoke of a world shattered beyond
recognition, a life that might once have known the quiet grace of
sitting beneath a hundred-year-old olive tree, reading a book of verse.
But that scene will never be painted.
Those words traveled across oceans and found their way to the gates of
our quiet 55+ community, where we do our best to shield ourselves from
the cruelties of war, from hunger, from the harsh edges of humanity. We
manicure gardens, play cards, and cling to the illusion that life, here,
will remain untouched.
For a few moments, we will grieve for her and the countless others whose
lives were dismantled simply because they were born in the wrong
fragment of space and time. Yet, if we are honest, our grief is
weightless. It offers no consolation. Our thoughts cannot cross the seas
to become the balm their wounds cry out for.
And so, we continue to live in our cocoons. We seek shelter. But what
walls can keep out the quiet inevitability that shadows us all—aging,
frailty, mortality? Perhaps the greater tragedy is not that cruelty
stalks the earth, but that we might arrive at life’s final threshold
burdened by the same haunting refrain:
“I grieve for myself and for the life I had.”
Not because war or famine stole it from us, but because we lived as if
time were infinite. Because we mistook comfort for meaning. Because, in
the end, our lives were small, they were inconsequential when they could
have been vast, expansive, and perhaps, alive.
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