How You Wake Up May Be the Truest Measure of Your Life

A simple morning question becomes a powerful measure of whether your life is aligned, meaningful, and worth waking up for.

Tell us how you greet the morning, and we will tell you how you’re living your life.

Arun Kumar

Summary: This essay explores a simple yet profound metric for evaluating a life well lived: whether you look forward to getting out of bed each morning. By imagining your future self-reflecting from a rocking chair, it reframes daily anticipation as the clearest indicator of alignment, meaning, and well‑being.

There comes a moment, imagined now, but inevitable someday, when the peak years of life sit behind you like distant hills on the horizon. The rush of living without thinking has slowed. The calendar is no longer crowded. A kind of mental spaciousness opens, wide enough for questions that once had no room to land. You find yourself on a porch, in a rocking chair, watching the late sunlight stretch across the yard. Your body is not what it once was. Your ambitions have softened at the edges. And in that stillness, you finally ask the question that has waited patiently for decades: Was your life well lived?

You imagine the answer. You imagine the feeling that would accompany it. And you imagine, with a twinge of unease, what it would mean if the answer was not really. Would regret rise like a tide? Would you wish you had lived differently, chosen differently, risked differently?

Now pull yourself back into the present — the only place where anything can still be changed. Ask the same question again: Is my life well lived? This time, the question is not retrospective but diagnostic check on your own state of affairs. It is an invitation to analyze, and if needed, change. But a challenge you face is: how do you measure the answer while you still have time and agency to change it?

We have experts for nearly everything. A financial advisor to assess your portfolio in retirement. A physician to evaluate your physical health. A psychiatrist to help when life has already begun to unravel. But none of them can hand you a clean, clinical metric for the quality of your existence. There is no annual “life check‑up,” no standardized assessment of meaning, no device you can strap to your forehead that prints out a reading of existential well‑being. You wish there were something like that, something simple, inexpensive, immediate.

Surprisingly, there is.

It is not a gadget, nor a professional service, nor a complicated psychological instrument. It is a test so ordinary that it hides in plain sight. I call it the test of getting up in the morning.

The test is simple. When you wake, before the day has made any demands of you, ask yourself: Do I look forward to getting out of bed? That is all.

If the thought of rising feels heavy, if the day ahead feels like something to endure rather than live with anticipation, if the morning drains you before the day even begins, then something in your life is misaligned. It is a quiet warning that, years from now, the rocking‑chair version of you may look back with regret and whisper, I wish I had lived differently.

But if you wake with anticipation, if the day ahead feels like a landscape you want to walk into, if your plans carry a sense of flow, if your life feels like something you are participating in rather than escaping from, then you are on the right path. And if that feeling repeats day after day, the accumulation of such mornings becomes the scaffolding of a life well lived.

If you can consistently answer that you look forward to rising, then the future self in the rocking chair will not need to ask whether life was well lived. They will already know.

Ciao, and thanks for reading.

 

Lessons From the Retirement Community (9): Practice, Aging, and the Mathematics of Proficiency in Pickleball

A reflective look at how practice and aging shape pickleball journey and how proficiency evolves with time.

We rise on the strength of practice and descend on the rhythm of aging.

Arun Kumar

Summary: A reflection on the evolutionary instincts that drive self‑improvement and how they play out on the pickleball courts of a retirement community. It explores the rise and fall of playing skills shaped by improvements from practice and decline imposed by aging.

Long before pickleball courts and retirement communities, before scoreboards and ladders, there was only the simple logic of improving the chances of survival that drove evolution. The creature that ran a little faster, sensed danger a little sooner, solved a problem a little more cleverly, or carried some advantageous physical trait — the one that helped stand out — was the creature most likely to pass on its genes. Being the leader of the pack was not a matter of pride; it was a matter of continuity. An instinct shaped quietly and relentlessly by natural selection.

Layered on top of that primal instinct is something subtler: the desire not just to survive, but to seek improvement. To do a job well. To feel the small internal lift and the sense of pride that comes from being competent. Perhaps this too has evolutionary roots. A creature who felt internally rewarded for mastering a task would repeat it, refine it, and become more reliable contributor to the greater good of the tribe, and be rewarded. Over time, that inner glow of self-confidence became a quiet engine within us. Even now, the same machinery hums. We still want to get better, even when “better” is measured in the arc of a paddle and the bounce of a plastic ball just clearing the net.

Under the soft morning light, I can see those old instincts playing out on the pickleball court. Some players arrive before the sun is fully up, paddles in hand, ready to squeeze in a few warm-up games. They join ladder play, form small conclaves that practice together, and analyze their shots with the seriousness of field scientists. All of it is an attempt to push their skill rating upward — from 2.0, where beginners learn to keep the ball in play, toward 5.0, where mastery shows itself in precision, strategy, and near-effortless control.

But while practice pushes curve of proficiency steadily upward, another curve — driven by the very different force of aging — moves proficiency quietly in the opposite direction. Aging is the invisible opponent on every court. Reflexes soften. Agility becomes a little less obedient. The aches that follow an intense game linger longer than they once did. Playing pickleball slows rate of the decline, but it cannot overcome it entirely. The drumbeat of aging continues, steady and impartial.

If one were to plot the influence of practice and aging on an x–y (time-proficiency) plane, it would reveal the time-evolution of two curves of proficiency. One curve driven by practice, discipline, and repetition rises with time. The other curve influenced by aging and limitations of biology declines with time. The shape of our pickleball life is the net sum of these two arcs. At first, the practice curve dominates. Skills improve. Footwork sharpens. Strategy deepens. But eventually, the aging curve begins to exert more influence. Gains become smaller and harder to come by. And at some point in time the sum of two curves reaches its peak. After that, the descent begins.

This behavior is something not to lament about. It is simply the geometry and algebra of the human condition.

Beyond the coldness of mathematics, engaging in pickleball, however, has more to offer. Just showing up on the court is its own set of benefit stacking. The habit of being on the court pushes the decline due to aging further into the future. And then there is the laughter, the camaraderie, the belonging to a tribe of people navigating the same terrain — these are not measured in skill ratings. They contribute to the measures of a well‑lived life.

So, the message is not one of resignation or despair that one day our pickleball proficiency will reach a peak. It is simply an acknowledgment of how life, and the game of pickleball, will inevitably unfold. There will be a peak, and it will be followed by a decline. We should be prepared to accept that eventuality.

And with that understanding under the belt, there is the simple joy of stepping onto the court. With a paddle in hand, I head out, ready to play.

Ciao, and thanks for reading.

 

The Contract Between Birth and Death

A quiet meditation on witnessing a friend’s decline and the unspoken contract each of us carries from the moment we are born.

The contract between birth and death exists, but so does the space in between in which we live.

Arun Kumar

Summary: A reflection on witnessing a friend’s quiet surrender to illness, this essay explores the unspoken “contract” between birth and death. It meditates on how we meet life’s final chapter — suddenly, unknowingly, reluctantly, or with grace.

There are moments when life pauses with an exhausted exhale. Those are the moments when we often wonder — why us?

Yesterday afternoon held one of those moments. Our friend, diagnosed with stage‑three lung cancer and worn down by six months of a relentless cycle of hope and despair, stopped by our house on his way to yet another hospital admission. His body has been faltering — persistent coughing, low‑grade fevers, breath arriving in shallow fragments — and the doctors have not been able to explain why.

When he sat in the car in our doorway, there was a distinctive look in his eyes — a sadness edged with quiet surrender, the kind that comes when we sense it may be time to let go of something we cherish. From the passenger seat, his lips trembled as he said he was tired, and in that tremor, perhaps, lay a sentiment he did not name: that if his journey were to end, he might no longer resist it. It is a hard thing to witness — the softening of someone’s will to live.

From the day we are born, there is a contract written into our existence — a contract between birth and death. It is not negotiated, and often not even acknowledged through most of our living days. The contract simply states: if we are born, then we shall also die.

And the ways this contract is fulfilled is as varied as ways we live.

For some, death arrives without warning — a heart attack in the middle of the night, a car accident on an ordinary afternoon.

For others, the contract is fulfilled at a time when we no longer possess cognitive clarity to understand what is happening. Our minds are dimmed, and death becomes an event we do not witness as it happens.

There are those who, worn down by the sheer effort of living, begin to long for the contract to be completed. Illness, chronic pain, or emotional exhaustion can make the confirmation of life feel heavier than its end.

And then there are those who meet death with a kind of grace. They look back on a life that feels complete, a story that has reached its natural concluding chapter. For them, honoring the contract is not a tragedy but an acceptance to the rhythm of existence.

But there are also the ones for whom the moment comes too soon. People who had plans — travel, retirement, long‑imagined, often postponed joys — only to find that life had other intentions. They are the ones who feel ambushed by the contract.

Perhaps the tears in our friend’s eyes were not only from pain, but from the dawning awareness that he may be asked to honor the contract sooner than he ever expected.

And that raises a question I cannot quite shake: if we are fully aware — except for those rare souls who reach a state of graceful acceptance, are we ever truly ready to let go?

As I write this, I find myself wondering about my own eventual fulfillment of the contract. Will it be a quiet passage in the middle of the night? Will it come at a time when my mind no longer knows itself? Will it be a slow decline accompanied by gentle acceptance?

These thoughts remind me of the fragile, luminous interval between birth and death. The contract exists, yes, but so does the space in between in which we live and have the agency to shape living in one way or other. And perhaps that is a message also written in the contact.

Ciao, and thanks for reading.

 

Lessons From the Retirement Community (8): The Quiet Power of Frameworks

Pickleball is more than just a game — it teaches how frameworks can help shape different parts of life.

The paradox is that freedom of choices often flourishes best within constraint (of frameworks)

Arun Kumar

Summary: After a year of pickleball, as improvement slows, I find myself searching for a framework to guide progress. A structure that can simplify complexity, provide direction, and transform frustration into steady gains. I am learning that having frameworks — on the court and in life — offer clarity, stability, and workable solutions.

It has now been a year since I first picked up a pickleball paddle. What began as a casual pastime has grown into a ritual. The court is more than a rectangle of painted lines, more than the shouts and playful cries that rise in the heat of a match; it is a Piazza in some small town in Tuscany, alive with rituals, where a tribe convenes. Pickleball has proven enjoyable not only for the game itself but for the stacking of benefits — movement for the body, connection to feed the spirit, and the quiet reassurance that comes from belonging.

Yet, after a year, I find myself on a plateau, carrying the quiet weight of frustration. The early days of swift, almost effortless improvement have faded, and now each gain arrives more slowly, demanding intention and direction.

The game offers countless angles for refinement: the proper athletic stance, the soft touch of a dink, the elusive third-shot drop, the deep serve and its equally deep return, the art of slowing the game down, the tactical placement of the return on the weaker side, the backhand return, shot aimed at the feet or the body. The list goes on, and with each addition the mind grows overloaded as to which ones to pursue.

The sheer abundance of possible avenues for improvements becomes paralyzing. What I long for is not another tip but an organizing framework.

This longing for a framework is not unique to pickleball. It is a longing that echoes across life. Frameworks, in general, are good to have. They provide guardrails and limit the range of possibilities. They prevent us from being paralyzed by the wide array of choices we face. Without frameworks, life can feel like a game of whack-a-mole: solve one problem and another pops up.

With frameworks, the path becomes more linear, more predictable. Perhaps less exciting, but also less burdensome. And as aging arteries remind me, excitement is not always the best virtue to pursue. Predictability, stability, and assurance carry their own quiet dignity.

Building a Home: The Metaphor of Structure

Consider the metaphor of building a home. One does not begin with the intricate details. One builds from outside in and not inside out. One begins with the structure: the foundation, the frame, the roof. Only once the outside structure — the frame — is secure does one move inward to make the place habitable. Frameworks in life serve the same purpose. They provide the skeleton upon which the flesh of daily choices, and our agency, can rest.

In pickleball, my framework to make progress might be as simple as focusing on three elements: deep serves, deep returns, and proper stance. These three can become the foundation for seeking further improvement. Once they are secure, the more intricate strategies — the dinks, the drops, the placements — can be layered in.

The Comfort of Linear Progression

Frameworks reduce often difficult nonlinear problems of life into quasi-linear ones. They do not solve everything, but they make what seems unsolvable manageable. The solution may not be perfect one, but it is workable. And workable solutions are often enough. Of course, from time to time, doubts will creep in — am I missing out on something by narrowing my focus? In those moments, I need to remind myself that the alternative is not necessarily any better. To chase every possibility is to drown in them. To narrow the field of choices is to breathe.

As I age, I find myself valuing frameworks more. Youth thrive son improvisation, on the thrill of spontaneity. Aging, however, brings a different cadence. To help navigate, frameworks become companions.

Of course, frameworks are not without their limitations. Too rigid a framework can limit exploration. Too narrow a path can blind us to alternative possibilities. The paradox is that freedom of choices often flourishes best within constraint

Returning to the Court

So, for now, I will return to the pickleball court with a simplified framework for improvements I seek. Deep serves. Deep returns. Proper stance.

And beyond the court, I can also carry the lesson into life. The concept of frameworks is not just for pickleball. They are also good for different aspects of living, e.g., investing, pivoting.

Ciao, and thanks for reading.