Victims of Impermanence
Two days ago
you said you loved me.
Today,
you avoid my eyes.
The friction will pass,
but until then,
we remain
victims of impermanence.
A blog exploring connections between things around me.
Inside our lives yearn for transition from a life of frantic verb tenses — doing, achieving, becoming — to the simplicity of being.
The human mind, perhaps by evolutionary design, exists in a perpetual state of striving. Across the long expanse of our species’ journey, failing to reach for the next meal was a quiet sentence of extinction. Yet today, that same ancestral hunger fuels a restless “what next?” across every dimension of the self: the cognitive urge to draft the next essay, the sensory craving for the next river cruise, the material drive toward a larger home, or the subtle social itch for the next nod of public recognition.
When, if ever, does this striving cease? When will I finally cross the border into that inward country where the self feels light, liberated from a relentless pursuit of becoming that must be continuously fed?
Reflecting on this, I suspect that reaching such a place requires neither conquering the world nor solving its infinite riddles. The key may be far simpler: entering a state of quiet contentment — not because I have acquired everything, but because I have realized there is nothing more I need to acquire, no further proof of worth I need to offer. Reaching that inward country marks a shift away from the frantic verb tenses of existence — doing, achieving, becoming — and into the simple grace of being.
What would it feel like to dwell there? To trade the relentless pull of glowing screens for a slow walk beneath a forest canopy? To stand among ancient trees and watch the sunlight filter through leaves in patient, quiet shafts of gold and green — and to return day after day, until the rhythm of the woods becomes the rhythm of my own heart?
To live this way perhaps requires a softening around the edges of the self. We spend so much of our lives fashioning and defending the ego, wrapping it around us like heavy armor. But what if I were to let it slip off, like an ornate garment no longer needed? In that shedding, I might finally sense a quiet belonging with the rest of creation, allowing the compulsion to strive to simply dissolve.
In such a state, the inner tremors of ambition may settle into gentler, deeper currents. The mind, no longer braced for perpetual performance, could finally learn the language of stillness. There, I might realize what was true all along: the universe never demanded a justification for my presence. The requirement was only ever a fiction of my own making.
I am fortunate that buried beneath all this striving there survives a quiet longing for a home lost along the way — a domain of slower days, deeper breaths, and unquantified, unrushed moments. It is a soft flame that occasionally flickers, calling me to step across the threshold into that interior landscape. One day, if I am finally there — looking up at the light filtering down through the canopy and breathing the quiet air — I will accept the raw, beautiful fact of existence, knowing at last that I have arrived, with no next stop left to strive for.
Ciao, and thanks for reading.